I was feeling uncomfortable. I didn't feel confident. I was trying but I wasn't sure if I was doing it right. I watched the instructor. I tried to follow along. I started telling myself, I can't statements. I realized I had to stop that right away and decided to adjust what I was trying. I focused on my feet and let my arms sometimes join in. The pace was fast and I wondered why there wasn't more modeling before sending me off to do this on my own but then I realized I wasn't sent off on my own...I "volunteered" to come nobody sent me off. I also wondered why the routine didn't start small and built on parts to help me remember what to do. I finally made peace with all of this thinking and thought about all the things I ask of my students in a day.
Being a student in a dance fusion class at my local YMCA made me realize my own students need to feel comfortable to build confidence and a willingness to try. They need to be able to self adjust a bit for success and work at their own pace a bit. They show up each day and that's the first step for learning and being a community member.
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